Update

Walgreens is done. Uniforms Plus is going well. Only four more days of working and then I'm done. Tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow, and Monday and Tuesday. Yesterday, on my shift, I broke my record of sales. The store was so busy, and I was glad to have brought in a lot of money for the shop. We were so busy, I didn't eat lunch till my shift was over!

I have a new laptop! It's a Toshiba Satellite A215-S4747... And I think it has a problem already. The screen will go blank for no known reason and it will stay blank till I let the battery run out. Then, when I turn it back on, it's back to normal. Odd and frustrating. I'm going to have to call the Help line. Blah. The computer had Windows Vista, and I'm trying to get used to that, but it's pretty neat, I guess. It sure looks spiffy.

My friend Peter is leaving for California to go to college in a couple of days. I was sad to learn that he was finally going off, but he's finally getting to do what he wanted to do. I'm going to miss him a ton, though. :( No more trips to the creek on my breaks from Bryan and more more excursions to Buzzard's elevated promontory while he's visiting his sister Joy. 6 hours away. By plane! But, only an enter key away by AIM. *sigh*

But I will be with my college friends soon! I'm very excited about that! I'll get to see the SGAers and the athletes and the RAs when I go back to Bryan! When I arrive, there may be only four of us on the hall, assuming Kimmy will be back from her retreat. Molly, Millie, and I will be there for SGA, and I don't know if anyone else will be there sooner than for the orientation leaders' thing. I think that a lot of the girls on my hall are orientation leaders. I know that Sweeny is one. And Nathan lives a few houses down from campus. I wonder when Ashley will get there. Yep, I'm excited to go back. Let me count the days... Eh, about 11 days! Well, 11 days till the 19th, but I may have to go up on the 18th because Mom will be starting school on the 20th, and it would be easier (maybe) if she were to just take me up on the 18th, both of us spending that night in a hotel (because I can't check in till the 19th) and then drive back after dropping me off. So, 10 or 11 days till I go back to Dayton! WooHoo!!

Today, I helped with my dad's volleyball practice. He's now the head coach at my high school. I used to be captain of this school's varsity volleyball team, and I was kinda nervous about going back after a year of college JV ball. It was stupid, but I'd thought that, just maybe, some of the girls would think, "Here's Lindsay, our old captain, back for a while from college. Boy, I bet she learned a lot. Oh wait, she didn't really." It was just a thought that was nagging me in the back of my mind, and I didn't like it, and I knew that it wouldn't even be a deal and that it was pitiful and selfish. No one thought that, I'm sure, and I really enjoyed going, except for when my breath was going away too quickly and when it wasn't coming back soon enough. When I was warming up with Dad, Brea came over and asked, "Can I warm up with Lindsay?" Aw! I didn't know that Brea liked me that much! That really helped to build me up. And, when my Dad introduced me to the team, Amanda added, "She's my big sister." I loved that and the hug and kiss that came with the comment. Dear Amanda. Amanda, I am SO praying for you in this rough time.

Practice was good, maybe, but it was good for me, because it got me with the ball again, and it got me practicing for 2.5 hours. Ah, and before practice, I went to the technical building, which has since been turned into the living quarters of three college-age guy friends of mine, to say hello to Justin and Christian. It was there that I found out that Peter was going to be leaving in a few days. And it was there that Christian gave me his gift of a very soft Pirates of the Caribbean Captain Jack Sparrow pillow. :) It made me laugh, and I will take it to college with me. Christian said, "Now you can cuddle with Johnny Depp every night." (Since Johnny Depp is all I ever think about, right?) It was very thoughtful of Christian, and I appreciated it very much. Sweet boy.

And, life is life. Can't complain. Shouldn't complain. Won't complain. Everyone has things that they could say, but I just read the blog of a friend of mine's that makes me never want to complain for a very long time. If I dwell on it long enough, and I think that I just have, I will grow unhappy with right now. I will say to myself, "Oh, to be in Dayton now. To have the schedule and the classes and the chapels. To be out of Newnan with its people who I've known forever." That's stupid. I do like it here, and it's absolutely crazy that, just by thinking about complaining, something like that comes out of my mind and onto this screen. Besides, one could complain about being back at school, too, but I daren't type such things or else nasty little monsters will come out of my fingers, onto the keyboard, and they will tell me about why I would be unhappy there, too. No, what if I were to think about the good things, eh? What an idea! Let's do it. (Sadly, nothing jumped out at me, begging me to type it out before my mind raced to another wonderful thing...)

Ah, here they come, the happy thoughts: My trek into the woods last week was lovely. I plan on trekking out there again before I leave here. My sister has begun to like two things that I enjoy. Those would be the Wicked soundtrack and Lemony Snickett's A Series of Unfortunate Events. We also now sing in our church's choir together. :) We sat together last Sunday, and I would like to sit with her the next, as well. Boy, is she a stinker. She's gotten a lot better with volleyball!

Ugh! Okay, all of those bad monsters are still way out at the farthest edges of my mind, and they'd really like to come in closer, and so to dispel them, I'm going to make a list of things that I enjoy. I've made a list like this before and posted it on my facebook and myspace, but here we go:

daffodils, green green green!, stingrays, clouds, the sky, stars, astronomy, marine biology, manta rays, hammerhead sharks, the beach, the woods, trees, bamboo, grass, scarves, Christmas, Christmas lights, Christmas carols, egg nog, homemade pizza, homemade macaroni and cheese, fried squash, fried green tomatoes, 2% milk, milk shakes, ice cream, moose tracks ice cream, strawberries, blueberries, picking blackberries and eating them, my dog, my creek, driving at night with the windows down that music loud, my violin, Devon's guitar, my friends, my family, my Bible, my journal, my books, my piano, the green room and that Caribbean map and the machetes, the den with its hard wood floors and all of the old tools on the wall, that small book in which I have started to record all of the memorable family sayings, the model of the USS Constitution that I made with some of Dad's help, the bookshelf that Dad and I made, the little glass violin-playing angel that my dad gave to me, the paper crane that Sweeny made for me out of sheet music, the songs that Nathan wrote that I have on CD, the CD of Callihand, my ring that Wendy helped me buy for my 16th birthday, my Russian spoon, my pictures, the deflated pink hear-shaped balloon from Styopa, I miss Styopa! I miss Russia! And that red heart-shaped candle near the balloon was from Kaylee. I miss Kaylee! I miss Mexico, too! WHY DO I KEEP GOING BACK TO THIS FEELING OF NOT BEING CONTENT WHERE I AM??? And it's not like where I am mentally or whatever, I think that it's where I physically am. But being in Dayton wouldn't cure it. No, now it's gone farther, this uncontentment. Now, I want to be out of the country, but not in Easter Europe, unless it were Northern Ireland or Scotland, and not in Africa. Hm, maybe I need to go back to that small bamboo forest near the other creek I explored last week. Perhaps that would settle my wanderlust? Who knows. This weird case of I-don't-want-to-be-here will probably be gone by tomorrow. I'll just go to sleep and wake up and be back to normal. In fact, my sister just got out of the bathroom, so now I can hop in the shower, then be off to bed. And I'll think of plenty of things before falling asleep, but I will go to sleep eventually. Okay, good night then.