How funny it is that today matches the
first day of autumn with unexpected instances. Here's what's happened...
As usual, I didn't want to get out of bed when "Circle of Life" woke me up at 5 am for work, but it had to be done. I was rewarded with a delicious breakfast of holiday and pumpkin spice bread and particularly good-looking hair. (I'd put some small and large braids here and there after washing it last night.) I was still exhausted, however, and I counted how many days I'd worked in a row many times. It's really not that bad, I've worked Thurs-today with Saturday off, but I'd gone all-out at work for the last two, and I needed more sleep than I've been getting.
I checked my email at work and came across something that sent my tired soul to a very angry place. I don't deal with my emotions well when I'm tired, or, I become apathetic about dealing with them when I'm tired so I just let them run wild. It's eight in the morning and I hate half the people around me, I want to go home, and I want to go to sleep. I told my awesome boss about how upset I was and about how I don't like being upset, and she said, "Oh, by the way, you can go home at ten when Justin comes in." My face broke unto tentative gratefulness. "Really??!" She seemed very happy to tell me, yes, it was true. This put a good deal of life back into me, and I felt so liberated as I walked out of the store at 10:10.
I headed to Kohl's to see about exchanging a pair of work pants I'd gotten recently. I didn't end up exchanging the pants, but I did find something pretty spectacular... Skinny jeans that not only fit me but that flatter me! Guys, seriously, this is huge! When skinny jeans started showing up on campus my junior year, they were worn by the fashion forward girls, and I thought they looked strange. Senior year, more people started wearing them (guys, too?), and I saw that they could look really neat. I started trying on a few pairs every once in a while to see how they looked, but they always made me look stumpy and unproportionate. When my sister wore her pair with her purple plaid, she's just adorable, and I wished I had her figure. Just two days ago, I tried skinnies again, at two different stores no less, but I got the same result as I feared I would all my life. Then, today!
Long story not-so-short, I'm now wearing skinny jeans, and I love them. Turns out they just have to be worn with the right things. In the dressing room today, I had on this
jacket, and everything looked fine. I fell in love when I first saw that jacket, by the way, and I couldn't resist trying on the yellow one then telling Millie and Taylor about it. ...I bought it.
Successful clothes shopping trips make me feel very accomplished, and, bad attitude forgotten, I was ready to face the world with my smiles. The joking ladies at the register were a blast, too.
I've recently finished up the two big books I was reading,
1984 (which I loved at first and loathe now) and
They Call It Pacific. I've got
They Thought They Were Free and
Radical on the shelf at home, but I'll be spending lots of time reading this week, so I wanted to make sure I had enough good material. After Kohl's, I headed to my local library where I picked up
Eat Pray Love,
East of Eden, and a small book on shorthand. I also brushed up on my knowledge of Anne Bonnie and Mary Read before I headed to check out.
I've thought before that I would love to be a librarian. I don't think I'd be able to help myself making up stories about people based on the books they checked out. I told this to the librarian who checked me out, and I asked her if she enjoys her job. She started out slowly, telling me that she likes it most of the time, then she picked up speed as she described the people who make her job difficult. She's heard on more than one occasion, "You're a librarian, you know everything." One lady came in, showed a rash on her arm, and asked what was wrong with her, expecting the librarian to be some kind of emergency medic. The library has tax forms available, too, and the customers often ask for advice which the librarians are prohibited to give. "Some people are just unhappy, grumpy people. I pray for them."
She monologued about these difficult people for a few minutes, and I wondered if she had anything else to do, but, since I asked, I was obligated to listen to her. I was mostly interested, but I just didn't expect her to talk for so long! When she finished, I wished her a Merry Christmas and moved my hand towards her in some friendly way. She reached out with both of her hands and grabbed mine affectionately. "You made my day."
Wow. I murmured to myself about how powerful listening is as I left. Did I really make her day just by being genuinely curious about her and her job? Did I really let my hurried mentality get in the way of enjoying those moments to their fullest? May the guilt I feel be a lesson in putting the most into people. They deserve it, and, I think they need it.
One more out of the ordinary thing happened on the way home. Three minutes from my house, I saw a basset hound romping in some tall grass. I noticed it had a collar, so I pulled into the gas station that was right there, got out of the car, and crossed the street. I wish I could say that I saved the dog and returned him to his owner, but, when it heard me whistling and calling for it, it ran away from me and wouldn't let me catch it. The end.
Ok, that's not all that spectacular, but it's not something that happens every day, so I wanted to tell you.
P.s. I'm going to get a haircut tomorrow. A trim. I'm glad of it.