Home still!

Well, at the moment, I'm IMing Jack about Chinese food and I'm totally craving some. I'm going to have lunch with Wendy tomorrow and Chin Chin and I'm so looking forward to it! I love her!
Yesterday for Thanksgiving, we had the Holbys, Ms. Erickson, a new family from church, and Justin and Joesph stephens over. It was fun and there was great food. I ate so much and my stomach hated me afterwards. We teens played Taboo and Gestures and that's it.
Today, Taylor and I watched the Teen Titans movie, Trouble in Tokyo. haha Then, at four, my family went to see the movie, Facing the Giants. It's a Christian movie and it's kinda cheesy at parts, but in the end, I liked it. And it was encouraging.
At night, Dad and I sat around a fire outside and just had a good time. I love my dad. And my whole family.
I got a little homework done and mom likes my "How To Be a True Sports Fan" paper.
I love geting to sleep in my own bed and not having to share the restroom. And I love having water pressure in the shower! And good food. And old friends. And the woods. And the feeling of home with the piano and the dog and the basement and big bedroom. Oh yes. I do miss my friends at college, but now I think that maybe Christmas Break won't be so bad after all.

Oh, and I've been thinking. (And this is going to be really scattered because it's not all sorted even in my head.) I totally want more out of this life spiritually. I want what Kim (and others) has. I want to be able to trust God with my lif and to not worry about stuff and to have peace. But then I think about why I want this. Because it's what I'm supposed to have? Because it's what I'm meant to have. Or because I love God so much that I want to give Him all I have in return. I'm actually working on loving God more. Here, being a math person, I wish that I could just have a formula to fix this. Just pray for an hour and read 3 chapters from the Bible every day, try to be kind and voila, instantly a closer relationship with God. I mean, I've never really been trained on how to study my Bible! How do I get closer to God?!? I do know, though, that I can't (in this instance) leave it all up to God. I have to work at it. And I have to give it my best. I need to have a desire for His Word and I need to love. Yeah, loving is hard for me. I so appreciate it when people tell me that I'm nice. And I'm trying to work on that, to be nicer, but I don't think that I'm a nice person. In fact, I can even be very violent. Not really physically, and I guess, not seriously, but enough to make me think that I'm not truly a nice person. BUT! I want that to change. I really want to be king and loving. But then, why do I want this? So that people will think I'm nice? Or because God says to be nice? Or because I love God so much that I can't help loving others as well? Well, um, yeah. Stuff needs to change. I'm not what I could be. I'm not what I should be. Of course, you know that I'm not a "bad person" by the world's standards, but God doesn't go by the world's standards. And I don't want to, either. So, I'm going ot work on loving. Yes I am. And I need to work at it consistently.

Home again, home again

Well, I'm home. I love it. And I don't want to write because I want to go to bed. But all is well. Tomorrow's Thanksgiving. And the Super Bowl is in January. Thank you.

Not very eventful

Well, I didn't go to church today. I slept instead. I didn't come up with a ride and my roommate's car was full. But I got sleep, so I'm ok. So I slept till 1, then I went and had lunch. Then.... wait, I'm going to sleep now.

Ok, I've come back to add what I didn't put down, but I can't think of anything. So nothing col must've happened. Anyways, once again, it's late and I'm going to bed. haha

Saturday

Well, I slept until 1:45; that was good. I lazed around... Dinner was not good but I had fun. At the end, Ashley had taken out some pennies and we tried to get them all spinning on the table. Then we went to Long. Ashley, Chris, and I sang some with the piano. Then we watched some Spongebob and Drake and Josh. Dwight was there, too. We went to Chris's room, then up to fourth. Then we tried to find a place to watch Rat Race. We eventually went to Nate's suite mates' room but it didn't smell too nice. So Nate and Chris sprayed Fabreeze. A lot. I thought we would affixiate in there and Bryan got Nate to change his mind and got us to watch the video in his (Bryan's) room. Rat Race was hilarious! We were laughing, like, the whole time! It ended just as open dorm was finished, so we went down to the game room. I suggested that we go sing hymns in Rudd and I didn't think anyone would want to, but we ended up going down there. I got my hymn book and we went to Brock for a while. Then we went to the cafateria. We sang some more and more and more. In the end, it was just Ashley, Bryan, Josh, and I. Bryan and I were singing harmony and Ashley has a beautiful soprano voice. It was so much fun and it sounded amazing, especially when we sang Our Great God. When we finished, we played around with accents and had a great time.
Saturday = 9 out of 10

And again

Another good day. I slept through my music theory class, not exactly on purpose, but I got some extra sleep and I didn't fall asleep in chapel. I had a yummy sandwich for lunch. Chorale was good, as always, and afterwards, I had my first strings ensemble meeting!! We played Chestnuts Roasting on an open Fire and near the end it started to sound half-good.
After the meeting, Daniel Tomyn stuck around and I played with him until dinner. That was the best part of my day and it was a blast.
For dinner I made stir fry with rice and I made a root beer float. (Oh, and today was our first day with the soft serve ice cream machine.) At the end of dinner, I got to hang with the gang. (Chris, Emily, Ashley, David, and Bryan and Joe) I invited them to come to my room at 10 to see my door. Then I headed to the Duets which I watched with Joe. After that, I went to Lauren's room to watch some of Terminator II. Then I went to my room to clean up for my visitors. Nate and David came, then Chris, then Emily, Ashley, Bryan, and a prospective student named Allison. Chris played on my violin. Nate asked me to come down to Rudd and jam so I went. It was cool. All of the aforementioned people came and Jack and Jon, too. (Well, Jack had come just to play the drums and he didn't know that we were there.) I listened and watched most of the time, but I got to play some, too. And Chris played on my violin again a bit. It was a good time and I'm glad I went.
Now I'm getting excited aobut going home, my lips are chapped and my hands are starting to get dry. Oh to be home!
Today gets an 7.75 out of 10.

English, ice cream, Washington, and volleyball

Yay! Good day with a great ending!

good dictation class - yes, music theory today was fun. I like it mostly because I'm good at dication, it's my favorite music theory class.
good English class - I actually got all of my homework done for this class! The first time in quite a while! And it was a good class, too.
lunch - I grilled up some tomatoes with cheese, then some beef, onions, and mushrooms with white cheese.
english conference - my English conference with Dr. Jones went very well. It's intimidating, though, how he says that my papers have potential when I already think they're ok.
dinner - good pasta. I sat with Dwight and Josh. Then Matt came and left. Then Bryan came and Sloane and Kim. I sat a talked with Bryan for quite a while. Then we talked with Chris, too. (I didn't end up going to the Duets)
volleyball - I played volleyball the first time all month!! I didn't do very well but I had a good time. Erin and Liesl were there.
happy - So I had a great and wonderful day! It was all good. Good class, good fellwship, and good food.

And I just recieved and replied to an email from Alex, one of my friends from Summit! That made the whole day even better! And another good thing: Now I'm going to sleep!
Today gets an 8.85 out of 10. nice.

Mucho Mejor!

Today was a good day. I cooked eggs for breakfast, I slept instead of going to chapel, we had chorale, and repetoire was good. I also got homework done. I do still have to read for CLF and write and intro and two body paragraphs for my English definition paper. I made a sandwich for lunch (always good) and my first ever sti fry for dinner. After dinner, I watched The Quarrel with everyone for their worldview class. (I'm not in worldview, hahaha) After that, I went to the cafe with reading homework and got to work. Sweeney came and read some, and then Bryan came to study, too. Sadly, though, I don't think he got much work done. We did much more talking than working. But it's all good. After he left, I went and saat with Devon, Milli, and Hodge. I had some of his pizza sticks, finished my Screwtape Letters assignment, then went outside where I ran into Ashley, Emily, David, and Joe. I helped them look for the perfect leaf, then headed for my room. That's pretty much the end.
Today was good. I'm tired, though. Very tired. I just want to sleep all day but I certainly cannot. I give today a 7.85 out of 10.

Sing sing sing - at the moment

Well, today I did pretty well in Dr. Wilhoit's music theory class. Then after class, I got almost straight to work on my homework for English class. I grabbed my assignments and went to the library! I was researching in the Oxford English Dictionary and who would come and ask me where Josh is but Jon. It was totally not awkward. It just like we were acquaintances. And thats what I want. I do still feel a tad uncomfortable around him, and I think he knows that. I don't think that's a good thing. But he's supposed to be leaving next semester. And I'm not sure if that's a good thing, either.
Whatever, that's enough of that.
So I finished my dictionary research, went to my class thirty minutes early and got to work on my other assignments. (I had a lot to do) Thankfully, I read enough of The excerpts from writings by William Jennings Bryan to give me confidence about our pop quiz. And I (hopefully) wrote down enough pre-writing material for my definition paper. I'm going to write it on friendship. I think that there's tons of information available just from my experiences and those of people around me.
When I got back to my room, I listened to Relient K, then eased into O-Zone and Cascada. The music shifted to some crazy fiddle music then to Riverdance. That's where I am now and I like it. It's super soothing. And the lights are dim and I have my blanket around my shoulders. *sigh* safety and warmth
But! Music Theory homework raps at the door and demands I work on it, especially since it's due tomorrow morning. Ah well, I'd rather do it now than stay up till 2 working on it like I did last time.
And, yes, I do need to be careful about what I write about. Some things need to be kept secret and safe.
That reminds me of LOTR and of watching it with my mom and sister. That reminds me of our movie Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. (It pretty much is our movie) And I really want to be with my sister right now. Ah! Sister! Ya tebya loublou, mnya sistra. :) See you soon!

A new week

Monday:
I was tired, but happy because there was going to be worship chapel. I had a big breakfast: two bowls of rice crispies, a banana, milk, and orange juice. In music theory, I remembered that I wouldn't be able to chapel becuase I was going to be working on my comm project with my group at that time. I was kinda bummed out. But, I went to my room and told myself that this stuff sohuldn't get me down. I opened the blinds to let the sumshine in and played a cd with my favorite praise/worships songs.
Although I barely prepared for it, our comm project went very well. All four of uss (Slikker, Hannah, Zach, and I) seemed very comfortable when we were speaking. Slikker did the best without a doubt.
At lunch, I got to spill my guts about last night to Joe and Matt. They gave me some advice and it was just good to talk to them and vent. And I got to see Jessi! (I walked with her and Danielle later on the way to chorale, too.) I also made an awesome sandwich that tasted SO GOOD! (I just finished watching all 11 episdes of teen girl squad with Danielle.) I napped until chorale, and napped some more until dinner. I pretty much didn't do anything all day. But tomorrow, I'm going to wake up, cook eggs for breakfast, and practice music theory. Then I'm going to do my English homework before class. That's it.
Monday gets a 5.55 out of 10.
P.s. I didn't get my dose of "shoe shine", but I did see shoe shine at dinner last night and a "what's up" was exchanged. :( meh... I hope I'll get to talk to him on Wednesday. Oh, and I told Joe that he could come home with me for Thanksgiving and I'm waiting for a yay or nay. Joe's one of my favorites.

The weekend

Saturday, I slept till 12:20. I called my Taylor and Mom. I didn't do homework (bad). I lazed around and packed for my CLF trip.
At about 5:30, Jenny Chrisitan, Audra, Ally, Anna and I lft Bryan for dinner at the Heartland Grill. I split a Terryaki Chicken salad with Ally and we had a good time. Then we went to Anna's house. It's so amazing and beautiful. We put on apple cider, played with kittens, relaxed in the hot tub, told boy stories, made brownies, and watched Finding Nemo. I slept with Jenny in a wonderfully comfortable bed. It was amazing and very refreshing. It stinks that now I have to come back to homework. But that's the price I pay. I need to get it done before swing dancing. Very important.
Saturday = 9 out of 10
All this boy talk, though, and a lot of stuff before, especially this week makes me think about guys asnd a special guy. I don't have one but all this makes me want one. Someone to have and to hold and someone who wil have and hold me. Someone who doesn't just love me but who Llooves me. It's kinda weird for me when these feelings rise because I've always thought of myself as a tomboy and I always kept up that appearance. But I am a girl and I do think these things. But that doens't mean I'm going to tell people about it. I'll just post it on here where virtually anyone can read it. (But the point is, the people I know probably won't come across this unless I give them the link.)

Normal like rice-a-roni

Today was a pretty good day. I pretty much didn't do anything. (at least not homework) Just normal classes... I was excited about how in cchapel, when I fell asleep, my head didn't drop! Maybe I can work on that and perfect it as an art. Anyways, I ate lunch with David, Emily, and Ashley. Then I talked to Joe and David. Joe's definately one of my good freinds here. One of my favorites, he is.
Chorale was good. But I totally am not where I was on the Messiah. Not like I was anywhere great. And I really want to be able to do those runs in "For unto us a Child is Born." After chorale, I got to listen to Jake and Joe and then Casey, Bryan, and Mike came in, and I got to listen to them, too. Then I walked back with Joe and we talked and I put leaves and seeds in my hair. On my way back to my dorm, I saw other leaves that I liked so I got myself a little collection. When I got to my room, I proceeded to tape all of the leaves onto my door. And now I looks wonderful. At dinner, I sat with all girls. That just sticks out to me because I like to hang out with guys. But for about five minutes at the end, Allan sat with us, too.
Then I went to the Bioethics seminar for 30 minutes. I sat by myself and then dear Joe came to sit with me. But, I had to leave and I ended up leaving him by himself. I went to Laura's room with Allan, Ryan, and Josh young and we watched the Terminator. About four fifths into the movie, some kids from Tennessee Temple came to visit or something. I didn't really like them. Two of them were really loud people. So we watched the rest of the movie with these loud people and talked with them for a while after the movie was over. When they left, we who remained decided to go out to Huddle House. Lauren and I shared an apple blossom. We left the waitress a lot of change (and two dollars) as tip. Then we went to the park and swang. Then we came back and I saw Joe again. He helped me bit with guitar. I went back to my room and decided to make pasta roni.
I made my pasta roni in the kitchen and Dwight came in and we talked for a while aout guys and certain guys. I really enjoyed our talk. He's a good guy. Then Joy came in and we had some laughs: She saw Melissa Brown and Michael Schroeder walking together outside and when they came in she asked them, "Are you together?" They said no! Also, Trent and Laura were making sandwiches for their picnic/date tomorrow and Trent was saying that Laura had never been to the place they were going. Joy said, "I've never been either. Can I come?" But she was totally kidding. That would've been so awkward...
That's pretty much it. It was a good day. Pretty normal. And I need to call Dad tomorrow.
I give it a 5.5 out of 10.
Oh, and Jessi told me the amazing story of their 6th month aniversary date and it's so beautiful. It's amazing to see how God can so use a couple to bring people closer to Him. I can see how Jessi and Evan have God at the center of their relationship and it's so beautiful. I want something like that. So beautiful, so right.

More did happen:

Yes, I IMed Peter and listened to some songs he sent me. I finished coloring my picture of Ariel for Millie and Devon. I waited in line for pasta and almost fell alseep. I got mushrooms, onions, and pepperonis in my pasta with alfredo sauce. I got to eat with Sam! When I finished, I got strawberry ice cream and waited in line with Joe. Then I sat down with Joe. After that, I went back to my room. Then I got invited to a FSDT (Freshman shirt design team) meeting. Then I went to the chorale room and listened to Jake, Joe, Kim, Mike, Bryan, Casey, and another guy sing and jam. I could listen to music forever. I loved it. And now I'm going to bed.
Good evening: 7.5 out of 10

Free as a bird!

Well, I did my English paper 2 corrections last night and I finished my English paper 4 today before class. It's funny how all that stuff I needed to do is all over now, like, all at once. And, I got registered for my classes this afternoon! I'm going to have 18 credit hours next semester and I'm taking women's chorus! I'm very happy about that. I came back to my room after signing up for classes, brushed my teeth, turned on Relient K, then made my bed. Today's happy hour (strict room) so I'm going to be doing some more cleaning today but other than that it seems like i don't have much to do. Of course, there's always comm and next week's homework. I feel, though, as if I deserve a break after these past homework-laden days. Oh, and I had this crazy idea: What if for a whole week, I did all my homework at the earliest moment I could after I learned that I had to do it? Crazy indeed, but I think I'll try that sometime. Not this week, of course.
Well, more stuff will probably happen later so I'll probably be writing more later.

I wish I'd started this ages ago

So, I'm pretty much copying Will Sergeant's idea with this blog. I really wish that I journaled more often and I think that this will be easier for me. I don't know yet about letting everybody see this but I probably will when I feel more confident in my writing or something like that. But then I doubt I'll be able to be as open on some things.
I definately want to go back sometime and fill in all the stuff that's happened to me recently because I don't have it written down anywhere. But I'm not going to do that now because I have a lot of homework. Homework is the worst part about college. Honestly. It's worse than drama. With drama, I can be with people and talk, but with homework I have to focus and seclude myself. blah. Right now I am needing to work on my English paper corrections (paper 2) and my fourth paper rough draft... then turn it into something I could hand in as a paper. And I have to work on my comm group project. I really need to work on that because I don't want to let my group down. It'll be hard to get that together... I need to have it done by Saturday because I'm going to my CLF leader's house Saturday night to Sunday for a fun girl's night.
But personally, I've been good (even great at times) for a whole week. (That would be since I've asked Bryan to the Christmas banquet and he said yes.) I'm not really trusting this long time of good feelings because everytime that's happened, something really big and bad has come up. But, C.S. Lewis would tell me to not fear or worry about the future, but live in the present and enjoy it. So that's what I'm going to do. And for the present, I'm going to do homework. After I make some ramen noodles. And, actually, I found that it helps me to be told to do homework. See, I told Allan on Sunday about my homework dilemma and he told me, "Linday, do your homework." I remembered what he said and I did do my homework. So I guess when one of my friends or someone I respect or something tells me to do homework, I have more incentive to do it. I need to be told what to do! Or, I could just acquire super powers and fly away from this alltogether.

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By the way, I have totally spent an hour tweaking my blog and definately not doing homework. And I saw a comment from some random guy on my first post so I guess it doesn't really matter if I give out my URL to people or not because anyone can see my blog. And that's ok. Now, if I don't start working on my English homework, it will be academic suicide for me.